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Hey i had a dream about you the other night I actually have been having alot of them since i started seeing you i see you in my head in the day time i miss you when I’m not with you at night when I’m in bed I talk to you tell you i love you I don’t think you believe me though do you? In my dreams I feel your arms are wrapped around me and your laying beside me like my angel that you are to me don’t tell anybody else this but I’m only living for you now you may think I’m joking but no bs I love you we never finished talking about how have I touched you??Can we talk about that I wanted to talk about it but not with anybody else with us and what about the adopt me thing i was for real I wasn’t playing when I asked you that I can’t sleep 230 am. 5-112022 can’t stop thinking guess what about? You

5-122022 mom thinks I’m doin better on my meds but I’ve had a headache every day since the last day I saw you that was the only day I didn’t have 1 if I was feeling better why am i  having a headache every day she don’t know that and I don’t have the want to better on do anything I wanna hurt myself nobody thinks I  feel like shit when I act like I feel good when I really wanna die and not live anymore hey I have a question my birthday is on July 19th that’s a Tuesday this year your the only person I wanna be with  on my birthday I know that’s bad to say but it’s true  I know my thoughts are everywhere sorry my thoughts are going everywhere nobody understands how close we   Are  every time  somebody blames me for something i  can’t help i just wanna die even more i cant take it anymore I’m having headakes 24\7 and I think there from my workers or something what do you think I think I need some meds for that      still been sleeping lots like falling asleep in my chair  the only day I haven’t had  a headake is the last day I was there and today yet 5-25-22  for some reason I don’t get them when I come see you evermeytime anybody pisses me off I just wanna cut myself  and blead out and not wake up