my story

 My story I feel like I don't matter 2 people I feel alone scared I don't feel wanted in this world I'm broken don't try 2 fix me I don't understand so help me please I need 2 cry everyday & I do but y me everyday 

is my life this a lot 4 my ihead/book \\but y me. It seems this will never end 
Y do my tears fall like clear water?? It hurts so bad but when it's not even how I feel I'm scared of fallen alone & broken I don't know what 2 do or how 2 fix it so help me My water in my tears is dark & icy cold but clear not black I need 2 put a happy face on but I feel like I can't but y?
Y do I hurt how can I fix it?? Help me break out of my shell
it rains in my life everyday y does it hurt y do we get hurt so easy & it’s so hard 2 get up when we fall on our faces so hard because our hearts r broken into pieces y me. y do people that say they care about u the most hurt u so bad they no u care but in turn u no they don't in your heart of hearts
I feel like I'm not good 4 anyone because of The way I am I  just want 2 give up what is there me out there 4 me (I don't feel worth anything  where 2 go from here some1 please help me out of this damn black hole I'm in I feel alone & scared y the hell do I feel  this shit 2 but y the hell me leave me alone Y do u put all this on me ist because u no I can take it well I can't take it i dont feel needed/wanted I feel lost/broken but y do I feel like this when I shouldn't I know but I do I can't fix this Idk how 2 deal how do people do the they do I don't get it people don't care about me so y care about I've tried 2 stop thinking about any of this I wanna cry I'm sick of bring strong I wanna give up I don't wanna b me anymore I don't have a life I want 1 but I can't have 1 because I have 2 take of care of 2 people/places soon I can't take it anymore but can't talk 2 anyone about what I feel inside. My feelings don't count 2 anyone & they never have & never will I'm alone in this world I'm done with all this I'm sick of it all I'm sick of crying I have a wall up I've been sick in the head 4 years I have 2 put on a face. The tears fall idly I smile so the world wants no how I feel inside n how much I hurt inside because I never show or tell anyone how I feel. Because I don't matter in the world because of 2 reasons 1 when I tell people how I feel I’s like I don’t matter in this world. I don’t have any friends 2 count on or that I can lean want 2 care but I don’t. I feel like I don't matter 2 people I feel alone scared I don't feel wanted in this world I'm broken don't try 2 fix me I don't understand 
I need 2 cry everyday & I do but y me everyday
 y is my life this a lot 4 my head/book but y me
It seems this will never end y now y
Y do my tears fall like clear water?? It hurts so bad but when it's not even how I feel I'm scared of fallen alone & broken I don't know what 2 do or how 2 fix it 
my water in my tears is dark & icy cold but clear not black I need 2 put i  happy face on but I feel like I can't but y?
 y do I hurt I don't like this it hurts to feel like I do. I'm worth it but I know I’m not so show\tell me what to do & how to do it.
 it rains in my life everyday y dose it hurt y do we get hurt so easy & it’s so hard 2 get up when we fall on our faces so hard because our hearts r broken into peace’s y me
 
 y does people that say they care about u the most hurt u so bad they no u care but in turn u no they don't in ur heart of hearts
 I feel like I'm not good 4 anyone bc of the way I am I just want 2 give up what is there me out there 4 me (I don't feel worth shit right now idk where 2 go from here some1 Fucken help me out of this damn black hole I'm in
  I feel alone & scared y the hell do I feel like this tell/show me god y me god u can pick some1 else 2 do this shit 2 but y the hell me leave me alone
 y does u put all this on me is it bc u no I can take it well I can't take anymore so please don't give me anymore stuff in my life r/n please
I don't feel needed/wanted I feel lost /broken but y do I feel like this when I shouldn't I no but I do I can't fix this Idk how 2 deal Witt this that went on I feel like I don't matter 2 people I feel alone scared I don't feel wanted in this world I'm broken don't try 2 fix me I don't understand so help me please
I need 2 cry everyday & I do but y me everyday come on god show me the path u want me 2 Take I'm sick of crying y me
y is my life this a lot 4 my ihead/book \\but y me. It seems this will never end y now y
Y do my tears fall like clear water?? It hurts so bad but when it's not even how I feel I'm scared of fallen alone & broken I don't know what 2 do or how 2 fix it so help me god. My water in my tears is dark & icy cold but clear not black I need 2 put a happy face on but I feel like I can't but y?
Y do I hurt how can I fix it?? Help me break out of my shell I don't like this it hurts to feel like I do. I'm worth it but I know I'm not so show\tell me what to do & how to do it.
it rains in my life everyday y does it hurt y do we get hurt so easy & it’s so hard 2 get up when we fall on our faces so hard because our hearts r broken into pieces y me. y do people that say they care about u the most hurt u so bad they no u care but in turn u no they don't in your heart of hearts
I feel like I'm not good 4 anyone because of The way I am I just want 2 give up what is there me out there 4 me (I don't feel worth anything right now idk where 2 go from here some1 please help me out of this damn black hole I'm in I feel alone & scared y the hell do I feel like this tell/show me god y me god u can pick some1 else 2 do this shit 2 but y the hell me leave me alone Y do u put all this on me is it because u no I can take it well I can't take anymore so please don't give me anymore stuff in my life r/n please stop. I don't feel needed/wanted I feel lost/broken but y do I feel like this when I shouldn't I know but I do I can't fix this Idk how 2 deal Witt this that went on last week how do people do the things they do I don't get it people don't care about me so y care about I've tried 2 stop thinking about any of this I wanna cry I'm sick of bring strong I wanna give up I don't wanna b me anymore I don't have a life I want 1 but I can't have 1 because I have 2 take of care of 2 people/places soon I can't take it anymore but can't talk 2 anyone about what I feel inside. My feelings don't count 2 anyone & they never have & never will I'm alone in this world I'm done with all this I'm sick of it all I'm sick of crying I have a wall up I've been sick in the head 4 years I have 2 put on a face. The tears fall idly I smile so the world wants no how I feel inside n how much I hurt inside because I never show or tell anyone how I feel. Because I don't matter in the world because of 2 reasons 1 when I tell people how I feel I’s like I don’t matter in this world. I don’t have any friends 2 count on or that I can lean on y god. I want 2 care but I don’t       I live my life the best I can these days. Most people tell me I’m one of the strongest people they know but I’m here to tell you I might seem like it because I go through so much, I am not as strong as I seem.
I am thinking to myself what now?   I felt I had  nothing else to  do   following  that  year my grandmother  got  really sick and that became my life  on march 24th 2013 she passed away and my life as I  knew  it was over she was gone so in my eyes I was gone  to even more than ever do I feel like I don’t have and have had no  reason to go on
I thought to myself what do I with my life now?  For years I felt like I had no reason to live like this anymore in a wheelchair I mean.  I think to myself now what good am I now I feel that my reason to live is gone.  I know I have 3 nieces but then I think to myself what good am I to them I can’t help them out in any way because I’m in this crazy wheelchair.  It makes me so
mad. I feel like I don't matter 2 people I feel alone scared I don't feel wanted in this world I'm broken don't try 2 fix me I don't understand so help me please
I need 2 cry everyday & I do but y me every day come on god show me the path u want me 2 Take I'm sick of crying y me
y is my life this a lot 4 my head/book \\but y me. It seems this will never end y now y
Y do my tears fall like clear water?? It hurts so bad but when it's not even how I feel I'm scared of fallen alone & broken I don't know what 2 do or how 2 fix it so help me god. My water in my tears is dark & icy cold but clear not black I need 2 put a happy face on but I feel like I can't but y?
Y do I hurt how can I fix it?? Help me break out of my shell I don't like this it hurts to feel like I do. I'm worth it but I know I'm not so show\tell me what to do & how to do it.
it rains in my life everyday y does it hurt y do we get hurt so easy & it’s so hard 2 get up when we fall on our faces so hard because our hearts r broken into pieces y me. y do people that say they care about u the most hurt u so bad they no u care but in turn u no they don't in your heart of hearts
I feel like I'm not good 4 anyone because of The way I am I just want 2 give up what is there me out there 4 me (I don't feel worth anything right now idk where 2 go from here some1 please help me out of this damn black hole I'm in I feel alone & scared y the hell do I feel like this tell/show me god y me god u can pick some1 else 2 do this shit 2 but y the hell me leave me alone Y do u put all this on me is it because u no I can take it well I can't take anymore so please don't give me anymore stuff in my life r/n please stop. I don't feel needed/wanted I feel lost/broken but y do I feel like this when I shouldn't I know but I do I can't fix this Idk how 2 deal Witt this that went on last week how do people do the things they do I don't get it people don't care about me so y care about I've tried 2 stop thinking about any of this I wanna cry I'm sick of bring strong I wanna give up I don't wanna b me anymore I don't have a life I want 1 but I can't have 1 because I have 2 take of care of 2 people/places soon I can't take it anymore but can't talk 2 anyone about what I feel inside. My feelings don't count 2 anyone & they never have & never will I'm alone in this world I'm done with all this I'm sick of it all I'm sick of crying I have a wall up I've been sick in the head 4 years I have 2 put on a face. The tears fall idly I smile so the world wants no how I feel inside n how much I hurt inside because I never show or tell anyone how I feel. Because I don't matter in the world because of 2 reasons 1 when I tell people how I feel I’s like I don’t matter in this world. I don’t have any friends 2 count on or that I can lean on y god. I want 2 care but I don’t I live my life the best I can these days. Most people tell me I’m one of the strongest people they know but I’m here to tell you I might seem like it because I go through so much, I am not as strong as I seem.
I am thinking to myself what now?   I felt I had  nothing else to  do   following  that  year my grandmother  got  really sick and that became my life  on march 24th 2013 she passed away and my life as I  knew  it was over she was gone so in my eyes I was gone  to even more than ever do I feel like I don’t have and have had no  reason to go on
I thought to myself what do I with my life now?  For years I felt like I had no reason to live like this anymore in a wheelchair I mean.  I think to myself now what good am I now I feel that my reason to live is gone.  I know I have 3 nieces but then I think to myself what good am I to them I can’t help them out in any way because I’m in this crazy wheelchair.  It makes me so
mad.
do you often wonder why people we love can hurt us as bad as they do & on top of that they don't understand how bad you hurt inside because you hold it in to make sure you don't hurt them like you I ask myself all  the time why me  have a life like this why my family
 

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